Human being is complicated and paradox. It is often difficult to determine value of life. Where does evilness come from? What is good? What is happiness? We never have clear answers to these simple questions despite the fact that we own innumerable knowledge. Many sciences are created endlessly to justify what is human being. What does clearly have influence on human being?

From my perspective, what have the most influence on human being are belief and fear. Both of them are deeply connected. Belief has been rooted in our mind since we remember things. Fear is developed hand in hand with belief. What I have been pondering for years is fear.

I have fear of my past.

My past makes me truly believe in things.I believe that it has been influential on my life during these past years. Sometimes it distorts aspects of truth. My life is haunted by the past. The memories have been keeping their pace with my present time so much that I feel I am the result of the past. It is very influential and has impacts on my being. Belief is deeply connected to fear. This makes me doubt how true memory is. How much can we trust our memory?

While working on this exhibition, l often tried to find the answers. Some of them were correct. Some were wrong or could not be understood. However, what became clearer was the “truth” about who I am and my belief. I tried to remove my same old belief in order that life could go on with better understanding. I tried not to hold on to the past. However, I did not reject everything. Memories were often hurtful. We could not refuse this if we did not want to refuse the truth about ourselves. My art was therefore related to my nature unavoidably. I used art as a tool to express my obsession.

I am not sure how far art can give me answers. It is still vague, just like my memories, what the duties of art or how valuable it is to our society. What I know is that art is part of my belief that seems nonsense both to me and others. However, I am happy to believe in it. If the best thing human being can do is to determine the value of life, I have determined that my nonsense belief would make my life valuable. I hope to walk across my fear and leave my past behind. They will later become a note for us to read and understand.